Blessed

I have struggled really hard over the past week with all of my normal sickness that comes with the task of growing a baby. However, the past few days have been a lot tougher than usual. I find myself under a great deal of stress with the things that are going on at work. I find myself hurt and betrayed because of things that were done and said behind closed doors. I find myself stressed because I want to be comfortable financially before this baby gets here and worried that we won't be able to give it everything it needs. But today as I was visiting babycenter.com I was able to see how much my baby has changed in just one week. Squirt now has all 4 chambers of its heart, it can bend and move its joints, its about 1 inch in size (about the size of a grape), it's sexual organs are beginning to develop, it is nearly physically complete. As I read all that is changing and happening to Squirt this week, I was filled with an overwhelming sense of peace. God is in control of all things, He gave us this baby at this time, knowing that it was the perfect time for us. I feel truly blessed to be the mother of Squirt and truly blessed to be going thru the experiences that I am this week. I thank God for allowing this baby to choose me. What a true honor. How blessed we truely are!

A friend gave me a book this week "Chicken Soup for the Expectant Mother's Soul". Below is an excerpt from it that warmed my heart.

Baby's Choice
Did you ever think, dear Mother,
As the seeds of me you sowed,
As you breathed new life inside of me
And slowly watched me grow,
In all your dreams about me
When you planned me out so well,
When you couldn't wait to have me there
Inside your heart to dwell,
Did you ever think that maybe
I was planning for you, too,
And choosing for my very own
A mother just like you?
A mother who smelled sweet and who
Had hands so creamy white,
A tender, loving creature
Who would soothe me in the night?
Did you ever think in all those days
While you were coming due,
That as you planned a life for me
I sought a life with you?
And now as I lay in your arms,
I wonder if you know
While you were busy making me,
I was choosing you!
- Colleen M. Story